For a long time now I've been meaning to start a blog to gather my thoughts in written form, but for many reasons I've never gotten around to starting it. Mostly I think because I've been leveling like crazy. But finally I'm a big and hunky (for a taru, that is) PLD75 and I have both /WAR and /NIN levelled so I can start concentrating on actually enjoying the game instead of frantic all-nigh exping sessions.
Actually I've managed to get involved in all kinds of end-game activities way before I should have. My first Dynamis was as PLD65 and I've tanked (or tried to tank) as /WAR stuff that "should" have been done as /NIN. But doing all this has taught me a lot on being a paladin. And I know I still have a lot to learn so I'm pretty excited about what's coming for me.
As I've surfed all kinds of forums in search of tips and knowledge about what makes a paladin hum, I've discovered a sad sad fact. Most paladins are arrogant and just plain stubborn. Everyone seems to have a way to do things and they think every other way is just wrong and stupid. Then they wave around phrases like "feeding TP" "MP sponge" and so on. And while leveling, I've met people who had PLD75 and they gave me tips, most of them bad. Then I've seen some paladins in action and mostly thought that they have done very silly things. So am I just like all the others? Maybe, but at least I know I am so I can try my best to avoid judging anyone. To guard myself and others from the "paladin-disease" I thought I'd live by the thought: "I'll just do it my way and see how it works." Maybe there is room for only one tank in a party...
I'm writing this while camping KA and I've already tanked Behemoth, kited and even tanked a bit ZNMs, tanked in sky (though nothing big yet, since I only yesterday dinged NIN37) and been a main assist in dynamis under lv70 and our CoP static just killed Ouryu. I've also started a social LS that I think is great and I'm very proud of it. And I've been 75 about a month now. So this and a few other things got me thinking about all those people who never actually explore what this game has to offer. You know the type, those that level a job to 75, then level some subs, then another job to 75 and so on. I couldn't play like that. Honestly, I HATE exp parties. Only ones that are nice are the ones I've had with my LS friends. I don't understand why some people never leave the cozy, comfortable exp and merit camps and go do something they've never done before. When I retire, I want to remember things like claiming Behemoth for the first time, kiting stupidly strong NM as /war (I could take 2-3 hits before dying but with awesome support I managed to kite it loooong time) and even all the wipes and failures I've had. But I hardly remember "that great exp party in the mire".
I'm just mostly rambling random things even though as a first entry I should probably write something more profound. But this is just me. I want to be that crazy reckless tarutaru who's always ready to go on adventure, even if it's just a bit too big for his little taru shoulders. On the outside I may be small, but my heart is still big. There, I think that's profound enough. /emo off
